Writing on the Wall

It seems to be the writing on the wall "Ankur we regret to inform you that.... you have missed the bus again". And I seem to be not doing anything for this. As Mitra said the effort you have put in the application reflects in your essays and yours truly spanning the world didn't had dedicated time for his own application for next year. At times and places the "compromise" together with the ambiguity is further sinking me down. Further the competition with economies sinking down is worsening the situation. Those financial guys with deep pockets dont think about the interest rates and returning the loan so all the schools are open.

This negativity is somehow not letting me think clearly and appreciate different aspects. Taking the positive out of the "financial" applications: I might be distinct, but how good is my marketing of the distinctiveness. The I-bankers and the researchers could also put in their exposure point. World travel everyone has, who cares about the extensiveness.

Spoke to pc yesterday for 20 min chat and we both were quiet!!! somethings from here and there but nothing good. We are 5 Hours apart.

I have put on good amount of weight and now I am motivating myself to climb up three floors in my building hopefully tomorrow. I worked hard at home and ate hard as well. Spent two nights out of home!! played 3 patti at abhinav's place and lost 80AED came back at 5:00. Lots of things happened. We 6, Abhinav, Shishir, Abhilash, Ritesh and Priyanka (PJ) went to Nahargarh, the RDB fort. 4 of these guys were driniking and I as a good obedient boy didnt. On the way to top we stopped to watch the lighting etc, then came a police jeep. I had a can which I had placed on the car dicky. Just before the Policeman got down I picked it up and was holding behind me. Then he called up driver so Ritesh went up to him and showed his license etc. The policeman allowed him to drive with lots of comment etc and waited for us to get going. In the mean time I had placed the can on the boundary wall. Now how could I leave the can outside calling forth all the H2 PAF stealing skills I picked up and smuggled it in the car. Somehow was very exciting. :D

On diwali day called up sharad at 11:15 and we roamed on the roads in his car till 4:30 am. Geting more daredevil we had 7 sticks each. Our discussions moved from one thing to other and so did the car. We started fom my place went to MI road. Then moved to main railway station after this we thought we should have long drive now so we went to someplace beyond Sanganer. which was about 40Km + I think we should have spanned more than 100km that night in 4 hours. I was thinking mom & dad would be sleepping so I could easily sneak in but to my surprise mom was up and due to some traditon stuff she was doing something. It couldnt be much tougher after half hour I went inside and went to sleep after cleaning up. But I am taking too many chances!!!

I am getting impatient, it seems to me, always have a feeling just finish it off. I would say the product of environment stuff. Another one came but of no success. Everyone has different take on this. Lets see how it goes. Sanity you need the Sanitary market manager.

This ambiguity kills me and still I am writing this blog and doing all the other nonsense stuff.

Cheers mate!!
~Tyson