What am I doing

It failrly clear that I dont have slightest of ideas about what I am doing? Not even the rat race. But does it matter if ou really need to have any idea about.

To say I am doing good in my job would be exaggeration. No one to blame but myself. Only thing is I am getting pretty mechnical. get up, get ready go to office and do the work (call here and there), take lunch come back and do same job again. come home and have food, chat a bit and then sleep and the cycle goes on same even on fridays (I am still making a report and trying to figure out where to fakofy and how much :( ). Whatever, I will somehow break this lets see.

My mom is not too optimistic and my hopes are getting dashed.... because of the all above I have lost the willingness to fight out.

I dont know, I am a big fool.

Ankur Help Me.

~Tyson